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    Pregnant in a Pandemic

    Being pregnant during a global pandemic wasn’t the best timing, but here’s why it wasn’t all bad! 26th January 2020 – I found out I was pregnant. No one in the UK really thought anything of this virus that was taking hold in a little city in China. We had no idea what was about to come our way! On January 31st, the first two cases in the UK were confirmed. 28th February, the first British death occurred on board the Diamond Princess Cruise Ship, quarantined at the Port of Yokohomo, Japan. 5th March, the first death inside the UK, and the total number of cases stood at just 115.…

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    Pregnancy: When growing a human actually sucks!

    “Have a baby”, they said. “Pregnancy is magical”, they said. “You’ll be glowing”, they said. They lied! It’s not all pink and fluffy like we’re told. Not everyone ‘enjoys’ pregnancy. Some of us struggle growing a human and THAT’S OKAY! As I write this, it’s 0350hrs and I’m sat in my conservatory eating cereal and drinking a decaf tea! Having woken up at 0200hrs to pee, I attempted to go back to sleep but the hunger got too much! I’m sure this baby thinks “if you’re awake, you’re going to feed me!”…demanding already!! I’m currently 29 weeks pregnant with our little boy (my first but my not-husband’s third after two…

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    Unexpectedly Expecting

    Erm…so this happened! We’re expecting a baby boy in September! Somewhat of a surprise but I believe everything happens for a reason. Rewind… Let me take you back to a previous blog post not so long ago. Our story of an early miscarriage. If you haven’t got time to read the full post, here’s a quick recap. In November 2019 we found out we were pregnant, but after only a few days, a doctor confirmed a miscarriage. It was super early but that didn’t mean it didn’t affect us. We were devastated, after just getting our heads around expecting a baby, straight into being told we’d lost it. Fast forward…

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    Miscarriage: A Different Kind of Loss

    Well this is a post I never thought I’d be writing! Sharing my story of an early miscarriage in the hope you won’t feel alone, or that you’ll understand what your friend, partner or someone you know is going through. I have written about loss before, after losing my Dad, but this is something very different. This was unexpected and brought more emotions than I could ever have imagined! One in four pregnancies end in miscarriage but so few talk openly about it. I felt so alone and unsure of what to expect. In just six days my world turned upside down and did a back flip. From a +…

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    The Crazy World of Deployment!

    3 years…where did they go?! 3 years ago, I was getting up at 4am to wave off my not-husband to Canada. He was deploying for the second time that year! You begin to accept that getting up at 1, 2, 3, 4 or even 5am is just part of the deal sometimes! The alarm goes and we get up in the dark, sneaking downstairs, trying not to wake anyone else. The Spaniel thinks it’s wonderful we’re up, celebrating by banging his tail against the kitchen radiator! Ssh!! We had been through a deployment once already that summer, he’d only been home six weeks and boy did we squeeze a lot…

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    The Crazy World of Adulting!

    Do you feel like an adult yet? I think we’ve all questioned this at some point. Haven’t we?! “Are we ‘adulting’ correctly?!” I glanced over at the birthday card on the fireplace whilst sipping my morning tea and it hit me! Right there, right then. I am an actual adult! Sharing my story because I feel we all question ourselves sometimes and yet we’re all doing just fine! The birthday card was “To my wonderful (not) Wife and Best Friend”. It suddenly dawned on me. This person in my life – my amazing not-husband – thinks the world of me. He thinks I’m great and appreciates all I do! Who’d…

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    Why is it women take their husband’s name after marriage?

    What’s in a name? I’ve seen many articles about the origins of a name but I want to explore the ‘tradition’ of women taking their husband’s surname after marriage. With changing times, has it lost its favour? Is it still as important and is it acceptable for a man to take his wife’s name instead? For me, it’s been a topic of much debate with my own not-husband on many occasions. He is a very traditional man, proud of his male lineage and believes strongly in passing down his family name. Unfortunately, I too am proud of my surname and hate the idea of losing it! Luckily we aren’t planning…

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    Weekending!

    The highs and lows of ‘weekending’ – military style. Urgh! Sunday evening and he’s leaving…AGAIN! Weekending sucks! How many of you can relate? My wonderful not-husband leaves somewhere between 1800-1930 every Sunday, either to pick up others or be picked up. He’s working 180 miles from home during the week and travelling a good 4 hours (if he’s lucky) back each Friday to be with us. (aka weekending) Why? Because the Army says so! Luckily only April – July for us, I know some of you do this long-term and I take my hat off to you! Walking into a quiet, empty house, looking at the chaos in the kitchen…

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    What exactly is NORMAL?

    I had a great session with my counsellor today. A productive hour where she made me feel incredibly ‘normal’. But what exactly is that and how do we know if that’s us?! I’ve been seeing my wonderful counsellor for just over a year now and I always wish I’d started sooner! Years of anxiety and feeling ‘just not right’, turned out to be the consequence of burying emotions and never processing or voicing how I really felt. Even as a kid, I’d never show when I was upset by something. I kept it to myself and continued with my day. BIG MISTAKE! As a young adult, I experienced the relationships…

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    Loss vs Life

    Part One – Before The Loss I wanted to share a little of my journey through grief with you. Why?! Because I wish I’d have understood more about the grieving process before it started. Before I experienced the loss! Losing my amazing Dad has been the toughest, most self-defining time of my life. It made me question everything, it changed my view on life and it pushed me to confront fears I never knew I had. The Beginning We never saw it coming! June 2018, Father’s Day. Little did we know, it’d be our last! My Dad and I shared that day in a hospital observations ward. He’d had back…