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Pregnancy: When growing a human actually sucks!
“Have a baby”, they said. “Pregnancy is magical”, they said. “You’ll be glowing”, they said. They lied! It’s not all pink and fluffy like we’re told. Not everyone ‘enjoys’ pregnancy. Some of us struggle growing a human and THAT’S OKAY! As I write this, it’s 0350hrs and I’m sat in my conservatory eating cereal and drinking a decaf tea! Having woken up at 0200hrs to pee, I attempted to go back to sleep but the hunger got too much! I’m sure this baby thinks “if you’re awake, you’re going to feed me!”…demanding already!! I’m currently 29 weeks pregnant with our little boy (my first but my not-husband’s third after two…
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The Crazy World of Deployment!
3 years…where did they go?! 3 years ago, I was getting up at 4am to wave off my not-husband to Canada. He was deploying for the second time that year! You begin to accept that getting up at 1, 2, 3, 4 or even 5am is just part of the deal sometimes! The alarm goes and we get up in the dark, sneaking downstairs, trying not to wake anyone else. The Spaniel thinks it’s wonderful we’re up, celebrating by banging his tail against the kitchen radiator! Ssh!! We had been through a deployment once already that summer, he’d only been home six weeks and boy did we squeeze a lot…
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What exactly is NORMAL?
I had a great session with my counsellor today. A productive hour where she made me feel incredibly ‘normal’. But what exactly is that and how do we know if that’s us?! I’ve been seeing my wonderful counsellor for just over a year now and I always wish I’d started sooner! Years of anxiety and feeling ‘just not right’, turned out to be the consequence of burying emotions and never processing or voicing how I really felt. Even as a kid, I never showed when I was upset by something; I kept everything to myself and would continue like nothing was ever happening. BIG MISTAKE! As a young adult, I…